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[corkscrewed]

It's not?

[ that worry is creeping back onto his face. ]

Honestly, I might- need a while before you drop more bombs on me, Jon

[epistemological]

[ He blinks at that.]

I wasn't-

[ His head drops a little.]

I just wanted a bit of company. And I-

Would you rather leave? I don't- I'm not trying to- I just-

[ He just lets it hang as it is for a moment before finally clarifying ]

You don't have to stay if you don't want to.

[corkscrewed]

[ oh.

martin's expression softens immediately, and- of course he'll spend time with jon. it's just not what he's expecting. ]

Have you had any inmates?

[epistemological]

[ He wobbles a hand. ]

I've been given one, temporarily. We...

Most of our interaction hasn't gone well at all.

[corkscrewed]

What are they like? I'm honestly a little afraid of having one myself.

[epistemological]

She's a shapeshifting ninja.

She nearly crushed my windpipe and sold me to Beast men as a captive.

[ That's a sip.]

Her tricks don't work on me. So it's a bit of a standstill.

[corkscrewed]

Oh, my god, is your throat--?

[ martin flusters. ]

They won't give me someone like THAT, do you think?

[epistemological]

You might.

[ He glances over at Martin.]

As long as you're unpaired, you're going to be shuffled about with anyone not assigned to someone.

[corkscrewed]

[ he touches his own throat with a wince. ]

Guess I'll just have to deal with it if it happens.

[epistemological]

If it helps, death here isn't permanent. You just... wake up again and spend a week being sick and feeling awful.

[corkscrewed]

- have you died?

[epistemological]

Not yet, but I've seen it happen to a few people.

[ He looks at his glass and considers pouring more, his eyes going to Martin's glass as well before he tips his chin to the bottle. More?]

And if you don't die, the medical staff are exceptionally competant.

[corkscrewed]

[ yes. yes. he definitely wants to be topped off, and he'll hold his tumbler out to jon. ]

I'm guessing it still - hurts like you're dying.

[epistemological]

From what I understand, yes.

[ He'll top him off. And then he'll top himself off.]

...it doesn't comfort me very much. Doesn't... make me worry less about people.

About you.

[corkscrewed]

I can't imagine you worrying about me. I'm still - back home, it's - things are different.

[ he's shutting himself up by taking another long drink. ]

[epistemological]

Because the NotThem... the NotSasha is feeding my paranoia. Was feeding it. Playing with me down in the tunnels and-

[ He waves a hand, dismissing the whole thing.

And then he blinks.]

'Can't imagine-'? I gave you my bed. I was up in Elias's office, banging on about CO2 nearly daily on your word-

'Can't imagine'?

[corkscrewed]

Your bed?

[ this part is repeated a little incredulously. not unhappily, just baffled. ]

It was a cot in an empty room, Jon, it wasn't like you were using it often.

[epistemological]

Why do you think I had a cot?

[ He leans in just a little.]

I wasn't using it for naps mid day. I was there half the week before I gave it up.

[ He gestures with one hand, the one that doesn't have the scotch.]

Switched from late hours to early hours. Hence the, er- you and your trousers.

[corkscrewed]

I guess I just didn't...

[ he chokes down another mouthful of scotch, suddenly deeply embarrassed. ]

Thanks. Thank you, I mean. For that. For - believing me, with her. And for helping me find somewhere safe. But you don't have to worry about me now, Jon, I promise.

[epistemological]

[ He snorts and clears his throat and waves the very idea off.]

I don't need a thank you.

But I'm not- it doesn't work like that.

[corkscrewed]

Well, I want to say it anyway.

[ pointedly. also, he is definitely feeling the drink at this point. ]

And it should. I can't even die here, can I?

[epistemological]

And you think terrible things need to kill you to be terrible?

...this is why I'm worried.

[corkscrewed]

I can look after myself, Jon, honestly. You're the one that needs looking after. I'm just, I'm glad I'm here to do it.

[epistemological]

I'm the one that-

[ Yes, that's a huff.]

I can take care of myself, Martin. And I would be concerned for anyone. I am concerned for everyone.

Not three weeks ago, I was in a cage being tortured and having cat ears put on me instead of my own. And apparently, that sort of thing happens.. There is reason for concern.

[corkscrewed]

You were the one who just tried to tell me that dying was fine, that you just woke up—

[ his voice is getting a little high here. ]

Clearly you can't take care of yourself. Cat ears?